After the War, 2

My world is grown numb
My heart aches
For the war has gone long
My heart wants only to
Lay down its arms
But how can I give in
Without first seeing you
And knowing you will understand?
~I fear my heart has already given up

Would the sight of your lovely eyes
Would the feel of your honey hair
Would the taste of your lips
Or the feel of your arms about me
Be enough to draw me
Away from the brink?
My chest is heavy
My eyes bleeding orbs,
~Empty of tears
~My wounds un-healing
Will the warmth of your embrace
Will your soft beautiful voice...?
Will you...
Will you still love me?
Despite all I’ve done
In this long exhausting war?

I have been so long afield
I often wonder if you're there
Do you ken I yet live?
That I try to reach you?
Have they told you I surviv?
That I return to you?
Or do you visit my grave...
An empty box marked with a name
I still own?

~I fear to tell you what I've seen
Have you spoken to others
Who have been to the fire?
Who stood tall before our flag
~and huddled against the barrage?
Who cleared the bodies from the fields?
I am coming home
Please wait...
Please, please say you still love me,
That you want me
That you will comfort me and
Help me to heal
To Become once more
The man you once loved

I have dreamt of you~
While we tore away the debris
Carried away the bodies
I have walked a waking dream
Of cloud and dust
And could not have survived
Otherwise without you there

Please tell me you're still there
That you still love me
Still want me
For I think my heart would otherwise break
I would rather die here
On my way back to you
Than to find no love in your eyes
At the end of my road
Please say you still love
That you want me still
That you dream of me as well

Say you can give me these things
And I will be saved
My heart could then beat
With renewed strength of purpose
And I could live again
Live for you
Belong to you and no one else
Ever again
Please say I am still yours
That you are still mine
My love
My soul
My reason for living


ELAshley
September 12, 2001
Visualizing what has come,
Anticipating what is coming